Im with you-Avril Lavigne

I'm standin' on the bridge
I'm waitin' in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I'm tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Hmm hmm hmm

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know?
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin' to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
I try to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you
I'm with you
Yea yea

Oh, why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea eee yeah, yea eee yeah
Yea yee yea, yea eee yeah,yeah

It's a damn cold night
Tryin' to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, yea
I'm with you, yea

Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I'm, I'm with you, oh
I'm with you
I'm with you


This song describes exactly how im feeling right now



(edit: there were repeated words... whatever site i took it from was crap. So i fixed it!! :D)

10/22/11

The guy I like asked me out...
:)

It just melted again...

U told me to call you
U said im the best
U let me listen to ur problems
My heart just...
Keeps...
Melting...
<3

Heartbreaking

My crush likes my best friend.
Im... Pretty much in love with my crush.
She doesn't like him...
He doesn't get it.
I text him about anything to get us talking.
I told him to look up the definition of a word, and he connected it back to my best friend.
He breaks my heart every time he mentions her,
But every time I see his name, my heart melts,
Everytime he play fully says "i love you" and even little things like "thanks for being there," stitch my heart back up again.
I dont care if you tell me tomorrow that he never even cared about me.
Just let me have this moment... Just this moment...
Of continuas heartbreak.

Procrastinating, and other things that bother me

I procrastinate.
I procrastinate to a point where I am procrastinating unhealthily. I procrastinate eating, brushing my teeth, sleeping, I procrastinate on so many things.
I wish I could just not procrastinate, but I can't help it.
I wait until the last minute to do homework, to finish projects, to do everything.
I wish I could be homeschooled, because it would just be so much easier for me, and the fact that my school goes way faster than other schools (we have 90 min. classes everyday) I am just so overwhelmed. I wish I could be homeschooled, but I can't. If I was, I could be away from the kids that annoy me and the kids who aren't my friends, but think they are.
I just want to be out of that school. I hate it so much and its causing me so much stress, and I just get so frustrated.
I hate the teachers because they side with my friend who isnt my friend, the only one that doesnt side with her is the teacher who hasnt met her yet. When he meets her he's not gonna think im his favorite student. Or atleast I think I am. I just dont like school. I really really dont.
You know how there are people who have babies because they dont know what else to do with their life? There's nothing better to do so they have kids? Well Im like that in a way where I dont have anything better to do, so chances are in like 6 years im probably going to have a baby. That's my prediction. Just sayin'.

And I've realized no one reads my blog.
I dont really care.
I think it would be better if no one ever did.

Christmas List 2011

(Because I feel like it)
1. Those big ear phone things... Whatever they're called. In blue.
2. Bass guitar strap. Preferably blue.
3. CDs. to be announced.
4.  Grey boots w/blue zipper
5. Tablet-Motorola Xoom
6. Leonardo da Vinci book

I'll add more things when I think of them :3

Anger: Soccer, and friends who love me

My friend kicked me in the leg when we were playing soccer ><
Not fun considering it was P.E. soccer, so we didnt have shin guards... Yeahhh... So u can imagine what happened to my leg when he kicked me: his shoe pulled off a layer or two of skin... Gross, right?
So now my leg hurts and its all shaky and stuff. Lets hope its not infected. Meh :(
Oh and all my friends (who dont really like the one that kicked me) were all defensive and like "do you want me to slap him? I will!!" Makes me feel loved lmao :')
Speaking of friends who love me (random lol)
I figure I'm not going to date until I'm in college. There are no guys I like or would even consider them to be my boyfriend. See, guys like me, and I feel sorry for them(cuz no one likes them...), and I confuse that with me liking them. On a side note, I just saw some guy talking to a lightpost... (im in the car lol) Anyway. And if I date someone from a different school, how do I know that theyre not cheating? -_- yeah, I'm waiting until college...