Procrastinating, and other things that bother me

I procrastinate.
I procrastinate to a point where I am procrastinating unhealthily. I procrastinate eating, brushing my teeth, sleeping, I procrastinate on so many things.
I wish I could just not procrastinate, but I can't help it.
I wait until the last minute to do homework, to finish projects, to do everything.
I wish I could be homeschooled, because it would just be so much easier for me, and the fact that my school goes way faster than other schools (we have 90 min. classes everyday) I am just so overwhelmed. I wish I could be homeschooled, but I can't. If I was, I could be away from the kids that annoy me and the kids who aren't my friends, but think they are.
I just want to be out of that school. I hate it so much and its causing me so much stress, and I just get so frustrated.
I hate the teachers because they side with my friend who isnt my friend, the only one that doesnt side with her is the teacher who hasnt met her yet. When he meets her he's not gonna think im his favorite student. Or atleast I think I am. I just dont like school. I really really dont.
You know how there are people who have babies because they dont know what else to do with their life? There's nothing better to do so they have kids? Well Im like that in a way where I dont have anything better to do, so chances are in like 6 years im probably going to have a baby. That's my prediction. Just sayin'.

And I've realized no one reads my blog.
I dont really care.
I think it would be better if no one ever did.

Christmas List 2011

(Because I feel like it)
1. Those big ear phone things... Whatever they're called. In blue.
2. Bass guitar strap. Preferably blue.
3. CDs. to be announced.
4.  Grey boots w/blue zipper
5. Tablet-Motorola Xoom
6. Leonardo da Vinci book

I'll add more things when I think of them :3

Anger: Soccer, and friends who love me

My friend kicked me in the leg when we were playing soccer ><
Not fun considering it was P.E. soccer, so we didnt have shin guards... Yeahhh... So u can imagine what happened to my leg when he kicked me: his shoe pulled off a layer or two of skin... Gross, right?
So now my leg hurts and its all shaky and stuff. Lets hope its not infected. Meh :(
Oh and all my friends (who dont really like the one that kicked me) were all defensive and like "do you want me to slap him? I will!!" Makes me feel loved lmao :')
Speaking of friends who love me (random lol)
I figure I'm not going to date until I'm in college. There are no guys I like or would even consider them to be my boyfriend. See, guys like me, and I feel sorry for them(cuz no one likes them...), and I confuse that with me liking them. On a side note, I just saw some guy talking to a lightpost... (im in the car lol) Anyway. And if I date someone from a different school, how do I know that theyre not cheating? -_- yeah, I'm waiting until college...

Its the place we grow up

Where I live, many family physically and mentally (words) abuse their children.
I realize after many years of knowing they were beaten, that it really depends where their parents grew up.
My parents grew up in the western part of the US of A. My friends' parents grew up in the Eastern part. Im not saying AT ALL that every single parent in the east beats their kids. I know for a fact that is not true.
I am now living in the NE part of US of A, and my friends' parents grew up in NE as well. They beat their kids, and my parents do not beat me, do not hurt me at all whatsoever. Does this now mean that I'm going to grow up and beat my kids?
Everyone I know is in some form depressed or suicidal, I find myself happier away from my friends. I find myself happier when I go west over the summer. Everyone is SO nice there.
What makes over there so special?
I have no idea, but I'm going to live there ASAP.

Real friend?

She hits me. She laughs at me. She makes fun of me.
She called me a lesbian, when I'm not. She's called me a fucktard when I said something stupid. Don't we all make mistakes? Some more than others?
I can't exactly avoid her, she's in a large majority of my classes.
I don't feel bad for her, no matter what kind of abuse she's gone through.
She's a bully, an honest to god bully. No one likes her. No one does.
I used to be my favorite teacher's class pet. She stole that from me.
Now, I found my new favorite teacher, my science teacher. I'm worried - no, scared - that when she has this teacher, he'll forget about me, wont joke with me anymore.
She's a bitch. I hate her. I really fucking hate her.
I was considering changing schools, leaving all my friends behind, because of her.
She's made me insecure. She caused my depression. She caused me to hate my own best friend.
I hope she dies. I will not feel sorry for her if she does. I hate her. I hate her.
She
Is
Not
My
Friend